3:27 a.m. Thursday, 1st of August 2024, while our Solar Star and others are sleeping...
You gotta keep your back strong,
Because there's many who's gonna stab you from behind.
You gotta keep your legs like a cast iron,
because there's many who's gonna trip you down from front.
You gotta keep your heart hard like a steel,
Because there's many who's gonna break it from anywhere.
And these 'many' will always be your friends!
Some clouds pass away but the others shed thunderstorm. They were always like clouds. And they only stormed eventually. I considered them as friends and showed deep concerns for every one of them while they only made me vulnerable to the vultures of human emotions and stabbed me in my spinal cord which I only realize after the wound is healed. Seeing the scars now, I see my heart is broken once again.
I realize true friendships are forged only during your school and college days. Who are your friends? And when do they stick around? While you're happy, rich and energized? Or when you're sad, depressed and vulnerable? The ones who stay with you or get attracted to you while you're well definitely aren't true friends. That is for sure.
Anyway, here I am, once again, all alone, with an insurmountable task, a goal, a dream and a path that must be taken all by myself. This time, I have a castle that I built which I never even dreamed. Viewing the castle, comforts me but at the same time haunts me. So, I've decided to undertake a ninety two days challenge spanning across three months to redeem myself and the awe-inspiring castle that I built, which is now dilapidated.
I call it Project MWM HUB, basically a real life extension of my YouTube channel. I had a team, new and old, first and second, etc. whatever they may be called. I failed as a leader twice to both the teams. But that's not an excuse to backstab a guy right? Coming back to Project MWM HUB. This time I've decided to run all alone, once again, and if at all a team forms, trying to be a better team member and a critical mentor. The leader, who failed twice, nevertheless will be there inside me, trying to better his skillset and talents.
Over the course of five years, ever since I indulged myself in creative endeavors in 2019, I've fallen down numerous times, five to be exact. So, getting back up and standing tall again, is bread and cheese for me. And all my downfalls comes with edifying learning which is only going to make the new process smoother and refined. Thinking about it, I loved what I'm doing be it in YouTube or in real life and I've always been doing it alone. This has not changed and until I feel otherwise about it, it shall continue.
I will stand tall...
No matter how many times,
I get double-crossed,
I'm tripped over,
I fall down,
I will stand tall...
I will rise and shine.
Three years before, I wrote up a journal about starting a YouTube channel, Journal #16: Launching Mission - YouTube. Not only I undertook it all alone but look at where I am right now? So, let me watch myself on a path to resilience. I shall carry my cross, the globe by myself.
Mark Your Calendars! Starting today, I'm embarking on a 92-days challenge for Project MWM HUB, running until October 31st, 2024. During this period, I will rely solely on myself for everything, producing as much content as possible, and independently driving all the clubs. My true rage, full focus, and undivided concentration will be dedicated to MWM & its HUB. To those who used, deserted, ignored, avoided, and abandoned me, I will show them all, every one of them, how great I am by the end of this project but ultimately, I will prove to myself who I am and what I am capable of.
Seeking Blessing from the Almighty and the Universe!
God Bless You!
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